news news~

what you're about to read is yet another not so good news. really....whats wrong with this year...? and its just early of the year. I'm reviving my blog with BAD NEWS rather than good. Not that I wanted to but thats what have been happening around me. I've heard nothing but more bad news. Regarding my grandpa's situation, I would say he is "quite" stable up till now. Its been about 3 weeks he admitted to hospital. My family almost had a heart attack two weeks back. It was great when we see him getting better day by day, able to move his left side of the body and gain his concious back. His feelings came back as well and thats where it is hurting. He was crying, angry at himself of his position when he was still in ICU.



A couple days later, he was transferred to HDU, not so serious as ICU. He responded our calls with nods, hand gestures and even try to talk but couldnt. Blood pressure goes up and down. The bleeding in his left brain have stopped which is good news!! As he knew he is sorta getting better, he began impatient, moved vigorous showing off by moving his legs that he is moving!. Oh...the next thing I heard, he even tried to come down from the bed!! gosh!!! Due to that, his pressure got much higher than before. He also tried writing but not so clear. He was moved to normal ward a few days later.



On the day he was moved to his room, around nighttime he wasnt responsive. We call him, shout at him, shake him yet no reaction from him. His breathing and heartbeat was very shallow. About 30 secs later, he took a deep breath, heartbeat back to normal for few secs and he goes back shallow. This goes on for as along as we are there. Immediately call the nurse, gave him oxygen mask and was sent back to ICU..... For that moment, we thought we were gonna lose him. To be truthful, Im not ready.... I'm still hoping the best from him. Despite hearing discouragement from others, I believe he can heal and it is not his time to leave yet. I would not expect him to recover as well as how he is before. Im still praying till this day. His condition was back to where he entered hospital.

Apparently neurologist surgeon didnt do a good job, changed to a new neurologist. He was stablelise and moved back to normal ward. We were happy he managed to move his throat. Energy coming back slowly. He was restless...moving here and there.....pulling tubes and stuff around him....asking to go home.... The new neurologist gave him a traditional chinese medicine which will him gain energy easily. It works well on him. It was a miracle!! Rushed to the hospital, saw him sitting on the chair with his eyes open!! He even waved at us, crossed his legs (gosh!), even place his face on his hand looking boredly. Hahaha!! You have no idea how happy I was. I almost cried with joy. Really thank God! Its a huge recovery for him. Ever since then he is more awake and energetic. Well...still not strong enough to stand up on his own or do usual things.

Some ungrateful friend

I was sorta rushing my advertising visual assignment last night until I received a msg from a friend. He was emoing telling me about his relationship problems, asking if he could call me. I said no as im concentrating on rendering my visual but i'll read your msg online. It'll be pointless since my mind is so focus on the screen than the phone. The next thing he said "I'm SELFISH. I'm just like her gf. All girls are the same." WTF is that? Comparing me with her? Oh please~~ I'm hear at least making an effort to listen your rants and you're saying this to me? Who's selfish now? I'm sorry~ Go find your "buddies" or anyone who is more free to listen your call. You dont appreciate a lil help. Don't come find me.

Answer my prayers.....

A brand new year where everyone set their own resolutions on what to achieve, what to do and such. Here I am hoping for a better year, guess it doesn't work all that well all the time..? I was having a fun time chatting with my old friend and bullying Kai in her chatroom and something shocking happened. What I most feared had happened few hours ago.

Around 2am, I heard aunt panicking about grandpa. Found him lying on his bed, dad kept on talking to him right beside him. He couldn't move. He can't open his eyes, he has no control of his left part of the body, right arm kinda shaky, he refuses to go to hospital. Cousin bro, sis and aunt calls the ambulance and to be told will be arriving 10 minutes later. That is way too long. Without hesitating, dad and cousin bro carry him to the car and head to the hospital. Entered the emergency room, had brain x-ray, found out he got a stroke. This time round its moderately severed bleeding at his left brain which is much more serious than he had before. Grandpa was sent to ICU. I saw two patient in separate rooms. One of them were mourning or something. Nurses busy walking in and out for that patient's room. Doctor arrived and explain even more detail. They couldnt do anything for now as his blood pressure is high, chances any medication given may cause the veins to shrink which then will cause more problems. We had to wait for 48 hours for another check up to see if he has stabilise. Doctor said he most likely will have to stay on bed after he recovered. This is just unexpected. I couldn't held on my tears and walked out of the room. We were asked to prepare for the worst. We do know at his age, he is bound to have some serious case. Came back at 5am, couldn't sleep, couldn't work and cant stop worrying. I wish, I pray, I hope, I want him to get well. I want him to be safe for he is whom I care and love the most in my life. I do not know if dear God would answer my prayers, please let him pass through this stage.

A scary moment...O.O

Aunt's house got robbed when aunt and cousin went for vacation few days back. Dad went over to her house to check and found out the drawers and cupboards were opened. Clothes were eveyrwhere, expensive jewelries were stolen, briefcase were opened....etc. I had to follow dad and cousin bro to take pictures of the raided rooms. While I was taking pictures, I heard noises. Not sure I'm paranoid or what but I heard it a couple of times. I stepped away from the windows, called cousin bro and dad up to 1st floor. Not long after they left, I heard again. I got scared. I just stopped taking pic, held the dslr tightly and wait till cousin come back up. Police can't investigate or take picture of the house unless they are back from their vacation. But it is best suggested for them to come back asap before anything more went missing. Who knows, their house may be empty for upcoming attempts O.O. I dun think they can stay there anymore, since their house got broke in. Never ever get flashy items. It will just draw wrong attention.

Not long I came back, I heard news of a friend of mine who met an accident O.O. I was shocked to hear it and that clarify his nickname. He could have lost his life. I cannot imagine if it really do happen........ Please.....appreciate your life.....dont be reckless.....

For all I know, I feel very insecure and scared.....

yam cha cha XD

this is really random....i just felt like blogging all of sudden and im happy =D. I came back not long from a rarest yam cha I had. Why am I still typing when I'm suppose to rush for my marker rendering tomorrow? ahhhh...whatever~

These few weeks it was raining everyday heavily and its COLD!!! I even stole Wuzzy's jacket to keep me warm in the library coz i was practically freezing there. I came back from college, changed into my short pants and jump straight to my bed with my blanket. Fan set to level 1 only. Sleep until dinner time, wake up then eat, took my bath and stone for awhile. The routine had been repeating for the past few days. Really stressed out just need to take a break. As I was resting on my bed, having this shoulder sore that irritates me, I felt vibration. Feiyan called me asking me out for yam cha at Picadilly.

So, Ajeet picked me up and we all meet up with his other friends. Turn out that it was Justin's birthday!! She didn't want to be alone besides, I live nearby so....=D. Felt bad for intruding =x. Anyway, Happy 19th Birthday to him =D. There were 9 ppl in total. They ordered a beer towel and some food. Had a sip of it, drank my hot chinese tea to warm myself. The only names I remembered are Justin the bday boy, Ming, Don, the filipino guy, the indian boy, another boy (LOL!)....yea thats all. The TV was tuned to Starworld. It was showing wrestling that time and all of us were talking about how silly or epic it is. After all of us are done with our drinks, we bid farewell and went home at 12am. It was short but nonetheless it was fun too =). Guess what...mum open the door for me....... she was waiting...... =x

Fei felt she might be giving a wrong impression to my family just bringing me out for outings at night. Knowing how my family thinking, they may have a misperception about her. The typical mind set of being influence of "hanging out" too much especially at night
would affect my studies and such. I know how it feels to be in that position. Even so, I know what is right or wrong. I know who I should or shouldn't be mixing. What's wrong with friend's smoking? Smoking doesn't prove you are a bad person. Its just an impression put upon by ppl. It is not wrong meeting new people. In fact I like meeting more ppl. I met few new ppls around this semester, got to know them well and I had fun hanging out with them, chatting and stuffs. Nevertheless, I'm grateful I met her =). God bless her.

modelling?

just a LIL UPDATE before anyone else starts to bug me for updates =p. i was a temporarily model XD. pretty fun ya know. ppl take shots of you and you just be natural i guess. gosh...i feel so vain~~~ XP XP

pic courtesy of YAU

Happy Birthday Shen Shen!! =D

Monday, 22/6/2009

My first post after a long hiatus. I must blog already before anyone more start to bug me to update and really proud ppl do read my blog XD. I shall blog about Meng Shen's birthdayyyyy!!! yayyyy!! XD. His b'day is actually on 21st June. Since it's a Sunday, our fellow classmates will be busy doing figures LOL. I'm such a bad friend. I actually forgotten his b'day!! Seriously lo...aiyo...until he invited to join him karaoke baru ingat. Jangan marah Meng Shen, no matter how busy I still celebrate your b'day XD. Arrived at the Red Box entrance, Shen Shen, Chris and Yoke Wan were the only ppl there. We entered the room first and started to pick songs to sing. Once again, get to hear one of the karaoke king singing. Yoke Wan also sang solo. Gosh....all the familar chinese songs I heard of. Yvonne, Ah B, Jonathan, Jun and Yee Jin joined in later and sing together. Sorry to have you hear my childish and cacat singing. Suprisingly, Aaron and his friend was in the other room singing as well. Yee Jin and Chris collaborated to sing few duet songs. WOW! Damn nice and powerful~! Show your powerful voice Yee Jin!!!Sang a couple of english songs since that's the only language I can understand. We left at 3 pm then MS, Yoke Wan and I went to cinema to buy tickets to watch Terminator: SALVATION. Decided to take a one day break from doing figures. MS fell asleep for 5 mins at the beginning of the show XD. I guess all of us are tired after singing like mad. What I can about the movie is.......Christian Bale and Marcus Wright are hot~! haha!! Let say the resistance won the war this time. The movie ended just nice at 6.15pm and headed straight to class. Mr. Tay brief us about our 3rd assignment. Need to construct a packaging design. Trace the images, create the effects, patterns....etc Luckily he revise us our basic illus and photoshop skills or surely do all wrongly. Had dinner with the others then Yvonne and I went up to 2D lab to kacau Daniel. Not long have to come down coz dad's car came. Here's a pic of three of us before watching movie XD

What can I say about you? Haha...we were same class since year 1 till now and our friendship is still strong. There's much to share with you. You encourage me in many ways, telling me not to be afraid in anything, your philosophies =p, giving all the support you can and makes lots of jokes during class XD. You've made my college life enjoyable. I hope our friendship remains =). Really thank you for the day. Great to have someone to be born in the same month XD. Once again, I wish you a very HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY to you!!